In the pause, when we have the choice to sit in meditation or not, what comes up?
It seems there is both yearning for deep connection with ourselves/world and an impulse to flee into activity, anything that allows us to skim over the deep waters of our being.
If in that pause, without immediately directing ourselves to the meditation seat of formal practice, we feel some quality of being in our body – that is the first note of the ongoing music and dance of the path to liberation we could feel as the touch of the Buddha. The earth that he touched when asked how he knew he was enlightened, “the earth is my witness” he said, because the earth/our body is without opinion or contrivance, real in sensation and mystery and nongraspability, ever changing (the weight of the glass in our hand, the temperature of the floor we feel with the soles of our bare feet, the ache in our lower back – examples of body/mind synchronization that IS already meditation).
We refer to the earth as Mother and let us understand that as Archetype and principle free of gender – she who accommodates everything unconditionally with a love that is Wisdom.
Both wisdom and meditation are associated with the Feminine principle and the elements of Earth and Water.
Let us keep that in mind, as we struggle with our ambivalence and suffer from the conceptualization that bypasses and covers what is real, that our very ambivalence and discursiveness can be the felt experience awakening our heart to the truth of our humanity…
Attend me, hold me in your muscular flowering arms,
protect me from throwing any part of myself away
This beautiful statement by Audre Lorde could be considered the essence of our path, so that Lineage Wisdom resonating from inside ourselves is moved to see through the pain of aggression that denies us the right and ability to open, feel the natural beauty – as in the flowering and learn to protect ourselves from denial.
The act of taking our seat, of moving down to the roots where we plant ourselves for even a short time daily to tune into and stay with the flow of our experience is the gesture of a loving mother deeply interested in the reality of her child.
That child is reality before intellectualization and unwholesome social conditioning like the bubbling waters – life force and expression of the world itself.
In the Shambhala Buddhist teachings brought to the West by Chogyam Trungpa from Tibet and evolving through his son, Sakyong Mipham, caring and kindness are the innate medicinal qualities drawn out by fearless and direct connection to what is through meditation practice: our very Being. This requires a radical letting go of ancient and protective mechanisms that have caused such harm to others and ourselves through ignorance.
Fundamentally, the bravery of the spiritual warrior is to slow down, stop, and feel the aliveness of all that we are – more and more in love with the whole gamut and colorful display – until we can “smile at fear.” The basis of one of Pema Chodron’s books is “smile” because we get to find joy in the discovery of the ineffable reality of impermanence. Rather than rise above our suffering it becomes the touchstone of Compassion, and this is the only reason we would want to meditate, if we dare to look intimately. Then we see death/change as ongoing and our path, away from dependence on anything external (starting with our karmic mothers), builds the beautiful, strong internal structure like our spines rising from earth to heaven so that we can become the response able agents of loving enlightenment – healing the past and nourishing the generations to come.
In literally keeping our eyes open in the form of meditation I’ve been taught and teach, we simultaneously meet inner and outer worlds and increasingly experience the root of the word “kind” as derived from “kin” our family of everything that is born, lives and dies.
So happy to close with this chant written by Chogyam Trungpa:
THE SUPPLICATION TO THE MOTHER LINEAGE
We pay homage to the Mother Lineage.
Your robe is soaked in water,
Your hair is elegant and airy,
Your perfume is exquisite.
From a grain of barley dropped on the ground by seeming accident,
Great prosperity has sprung.
Your milk feeds the nation.
We like the crescent moon on your hair.
We emulate your openness and bounty.
You speak softly but your command carries weight.
Please do not stop loving us!
We bathe within a grove of bamboo.
Please help us to become gentle and tough.
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